something about me

One thing about me is i've never been able to keep a proper diary.
I'd write about events in my life and my inner thoughts,
but somehow my conscience gets the better of me
and i end up tearing out pages and pages of my journal until it looks like this...

yep, oh the horror... i've spent so much on beautiful journals,
only to rip them apart.

If i write about something good, i'd feel stupid cos i'm too hopeful!!!???
If it's about something bad, lets say conflicts, i'd feel terribly guilty.


I realized in my previous post i might've put my mom in a bad light...
But i just wanna clear it up,
she's an amazing mother, and well... all parents have high expectations mm?

Bottom line is, my mom is the one person in my life i can't be without xxx